Lost.

Posted by TwistedFantasies | Posted in | Posted on 8:41 PM

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I'm encased in a hard shell of something with no value. Creativity & imagination.
It's colorful, black and white and hot and cold all at the same time.  
To normal people, imagination is nothing more than a word with a definition.

It's nothing more than a string of letters that forms a word.
and it certainly isn't worth more than what you are.

I've started writing a book about MD. Who knows? Maybe I might help out a lost girl like me.



A couple days ago, I came to the realization that I may get kicked out of highschool and put into an alternative highschool if I don't pull my grades up. :/ I don't want to sit down for 5+ hours and do homework. That's just time I could spend daydreaming, right?
The stress of highschool is building. More stress, more daydreams. 
I'm tired of life. I just want to lay down, daydream and never come back. I'm going no where with MD. I'm not even motivated to do anything anymore. :/
Flunk out of school? Still have my daydreams. Get a bad job? Still have my daydreams. It I apply this to any dilemma, I still have the same outcome. There's another world in my head I'm still discovering. Is any dilemma in real life going to slow me down much? no.


I thought this was kind of interesting. Did Nicki Minaj have Maladaptive daydreaming?


To escape her real life problems she would create characters and live her life through them.[39] In an interview with New York she stated, “[t]o get away from all their fighting, I would imagine being a new person. "Cookie" was my first identity—that stayed with me for a while. I went on to "Harajuku Barbie", then "Nicki Minaj". Fantasy was my reality.”[39]


I don't know.. but it sounded kind of close and I thought it was interesting.
Imagine if she did, she could make this problem become much more well known than it is.

If anyone has an aim, feel free to add me. :D
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