That's not Boy X.

Posted by TwistedFantasies | Posted in | Posted on 3:14 PM

This real boy.. His hazel eyes; his black hair and his tan complexion were all too familiar. I shouldn't have let myself so hard fall for him. I didn't know what I was getting into. I should've told myself from the beginning that's not Boy X. I fell into a false relationship based on nothing. And he let me fall. I feel as if no one can measure up to Boy X and I'm starting to doubt real life relationships. I've been so attatched to false people; I just don't know how to act anymore. I can't control anyone in real life but I don't want to sink back into my world. I keep blowing off hanging out with my friends because I just can't handle it. All I know is that relationships aren't how they used to be before I had MD. Somewhere along the way, I've lost myself.

In my real world of teen angst, I feel out of place. I can't stand peer pressure and my friends are all about dating, whos dating who, etc. I was forced into making out with some guy to avoid looking like some asshole.*excuse language. D; * It's times like this where I wish Boy X were real.

btw;; i'll be making a tumblr to link with my blog soon. :)

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